Estes: The Creative Life
“Some say the creative life is in ideas, some say it is in doing. It seems in most instances to be in simply being. It is not virtuosity, although that is very fine in itself. It is the love of something, having so much love for something—whether a person, a word, an image, an idea, the land or humanity—that all that can be done with the overflow is to create. It is not a matter of wanting to, not a singular act of will; one solely must.”
Clarissa Pinkola Estes, Women Who Run With the Wolves, inwardoutward, Daily Words, October 12, 2016.
Suzanne and Laura
In the past two weeks my husband and I have been on a motor trip of over 2500 miles back to towns and farms where I grew up reconnecting to my cousins as well as old childhood friends. I have been reunited with women who loved me no matter what I did. I have been with friends and family like Liz, Kelly, Janie, Debbie, Laura, Jean, Christine, Betty, Anne, Wanda, and Suzanne who encouraged me to be the person God created me to be, and they still do.
Traveling by car is conducive to long periods of silence and introversion and thinking of people especially women who made an impact on my life. I grew up in a small coastal town in Virginia. There were thirty-three in my high school graduating class. I went to college in North Carolina and eventually decided to study to become a medical technologist. Then the summer before my senior year, I worked in that field and realized I thought I might have the training and education to become a physician as well. In my college graduating class of a thousand women there were only two others who were going to medical school. No women in my family had become doctor. The only female physician I knew was Dr. Shirley Olsson in my small hometown.
I now realize that Dr. Olsson is someone I most admired and unconsciously wanted to become the authentic caring woman and physician she embodied. She modelled in her everyday living how it is possible for a woman to be a good doctor and still have a family and a fruitful life. By chance I would often run into her at the post office when I was home from medical school. I believe she is still alive now in her nineties. I did not see her on this visit but will try to make contact soon. I am sure she has no idea how she influenced my life just as I had no idea how she unconsciously formed and shaped decisions in my life.
What I have learned on this trip is to try to be a little more aware of how I can support others to become the person God created them to be just as Dr. Shirley and Laura and Liz and so many others encouraged, sustained, and stood by me.
Joanna joannaseibert.com